Where I ponder of my haters: where does all your hate come from?

Brought to you by this sexist ad from Vitamin Water and the number zero.

So, as popular as my blog has been increasingly getting, I still get plenty of hate comments too. Though I guess it could always be worse. Men just don’t like how I point out and talk about sexism so much. But it’s also been interesting to notice that while white men like to disagree and tell me why I’m wrong, Asian men love to hate on me. They hate and criticize me with this intense vigor that is especially surprising. Where does it come from?

I asked my ex and he explained that they are intimidated because “I have sex a lot” and “I say what they are scared of.” I personally don’t lash out when I am intimidated, but I suppose wild animals do? Like that? I have never been comfortable with people not liking me— having already been not popular in a mostly white high school —and feel really self-conscious when people hate me. Of course I know attacks online— and anonymous too— really brings out the worst in people. It’s just an interesting setup since here I am revealing and divulging (some of) my deepest darkest secrets and then strangers come and feel they have a right to criticize and attack me. So not cool.

But at the same time I’m here writing for myself and especially for other young Asian women and women of color and all women who feel alone or feel hated on or feel unloved (at times) or feel misunderstood. And to all my girlfriends and fans out there too. Thanks for reading — you know who you are!