I am the first to tell my journaling sisters -- Put You First! You're probably tired of hearing me say it. Maybe not.
I talk about how we're mainly raised to be caretakers and nurturers for everyone else around us. So when we finally get around to think about our own needs, we either don't know or notice what they are, neglect them, brush them off as unimportant, or even claim pursuing one's dream as a reason to not take care of oneself.
I was very close to being guilty of that today.
I'd been sick for the last 10 days, going to work almost every day but two when I finally dragged myself to the doctor's. Slight fever, but no body aches, lot of hacking and phlegm, especially much of the night. Basically a fun-filled week!
I was about to launch into holding my online gathering this morning and realized I couldn't even think about getting ready for it. (I'd been sleeping on and off 10hr a night and still exhausted.) I finally made the difficult decision of cancelling.
It's been actually a wondrous week of learning how to be comfortable and even enjoy the silence. That comes when you close your eyes in bed and you can't fall asleep, but you're dead tired, and letting your mind wander, flitting here and there.
I did feel terrible in thinking about cancelling. But I also did not want to fake it in leading the group, when I knew I did not have the energy to be fully present and engaged in guiding everyone. Maybe women wouldn't notice, but I knew I would not be able to enjoy it and would be totally drained after.
I've learned on this wild entrepreneurial journey, I want to be wholly authentic and genuine to myself above all.
Where is a place where you've learned a similar lesson? Write in the comments below!
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